He admits that it took him "too long for this song" in which he apologizes to Beyonce and acknowledges his mistakes and blessings. And he continues, singing that when his "natural twins" were born, he began to "believe in miracles," leaving him a better person. Jay-Z tells us in this first verse of "4:44" that he apologizes for his past as a womanizer and admits that it "ook for my child to be born" to be able to "ee through a woman's eyes." It wasn't until his first child was born that he understood how much pain he was causing. Thinkin' of all the time, you wasted it on all this basic shit
Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed Toyed with your emotions because I was emotionlessĪnd I apologize 'cause at your best you are loveĪnd because I fall short of what I say I'm all about 'Cause I wasn't present, your body wouldn't accept it You mature faster than me, I wasn't ready Said, “Don't embarrass me,” instead of “Be mine” “Please pick up the phone, pick up the phone” We talked for hours when you were on tour "Please come back to Rome," you make it home Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles Verse 1 Look, I apologize, often womanize Hannah Williams wonders for him, "Why do I keep running away?" as he thinks about how he keeps messing up. Jay-Z wishes he were a better husband and struggles with his limitations and mistakes as a human.
Singer Hannah Williams lays down the melodic vocals for Jay Z's rap track singing, "Do I find it so hard / When I know in my heart / I'm letting you down every day?" She's singing from Jay-Z's perspective here to Beyonce, his wife. He wrote it down, and now we have quite a bit to explain the details of. He actually thought of the song when he woke up in the middle of the night at 4:44 AM. He tells us that he wishes he hadn't had an affair and worries about what his children will think of him when they are old enough to find out. "4:44" is Jay-Z apologizing for the things he's done to his wife and to his kids. It's no one's fault."I'm never gonna treat you like I should" But anyone who has had a miscarriage - or is a partner to someone who had - should not feel guilty. How JAY-Z feels about the pregnancy loss Beyoncé has experienced is for him and his wife to discuss. Other risk factors for pregnancy loss include age, prior miscarriages, and ectopic pregnancy, among others. According to the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists, most miscarriages happen in the first trimester, and 50 percent of those are due to fetal chromosomal abnormalities. Miscarriages can happen for multiple reasons. Although no one should feel shame for a miscarriage pregnancy loss is a difficult and heartbreaking thing to experience. Whatever the meaning, "I apologize for all the stillborns" is a powerful line.
While fans speculate whether "all the stillborns" refers to multiple miscarriages, Beyoncé and JAY-Z may be having a vulnerable conversation about what that phrase really means. The one great thing about music is that artists can invoke different imagery in order to express a thought or emotion. It's not out of the realm of possibility Beyoncé admitted in her 2013 HBO documentary, Life Is But A Dream, that she had a miscarriage before giving birth to daughter Blue Ivy, 5, in 2012, according to People.Ĭhristopher Polk/Getty Images Entertainment/Getty Imagesīut there's also the chance that the lyric, "I apologize for all the stillborns," is a metaphor for something else. Taking JAY-Z at his word, the "4:44" lyric would mean that JAY-Z blames himself for miscarriages his Grammy-winning wife had experienced. According to Glamour, JAY-Z raps on "4:44," the titular title track, So I apologize / I’ve seen the innocence / Leave your eyes / I still mourn this death / I apologize for all the stillborns / ‘Cus I wasn’t pressing / Your body wouldn’t accept it
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It's an understandable theory when you consider the full verse. Some people have been wondering what does JAY-Z mean by "all the stillborns" in 4:44? The prevailing theory is that Beyoncé has had more than one miscarriage during their marriage, for which JAY-Z is apologizing. Since 4:44 dropped at midnight Friday on TIDAL, a lot of questions have been raised about the meaning of its lyrics. The Brooklyn rapper's 13th studio offering is a deeply personal, deeply complex record that acts as part confessional, part redemption. Fans can't stop talking about JAY-Z's newest album, 4:44 - and who could blame them.